A delicate balance....

Today I had a lovely opportunity to watch my mind and all its delicious ways it likes to MESS with me. I had to pull out all the stops. I set about to make my space beautiful and shinny clean and FINALLY put away all the clothes I washed before I went to Tahoe this weekend.

I can't just clean one part of the house and move on. I have to clean the whole house at once and everything looks like a disaster for a good five hours. A friend once said, "you must have ADD". You see I work in one area...like the kitchen and I can focus for about 20 minutes and then my mind starts up. what if...

So I start my mantra and move to another room...like the bathroom. I sweep the floor, hand wash the edges of the room and then around the toilet and then my minds starts up. what if...

So I start my mantra and move to bedroom to fold and hang the laundry. First I have to organize it and then I can work more efficiently to hang everything up. Yoga pants, tops, skirts, shorts, socks, etc... and then my mind starts up. what if...

Then when I look around and realize there is nothing left to do and I smile and then laugh at myself and the journey I took inward while outwardly taking care of my living quarters.

A text comes in...i have been thinking...

I left the house and walked to get away from my mind...to get away from all the thoughts that were slowly encroaching on my freedom. I have decided life is a delicate balance and it is all out of my hands.

All the while as I watched this whole thing unfold, I know I am still happy and I am still present but it seems today was a little cloudy on the inside and I had to work to stay mySelf...it didn't come easy.

I really had to laugh at the battle I created within today; I am still laughing. Especially in realizing I misunderstood said text.

The beauty of modern technology and the distortion of the mind...not a good combo.

My heart is full...brimming with love.

A trip to the mountains and a chance to sit on the shores of the Lake that I so love as well as watching a sunset from the top of Heavenly...it charged my battery...so to speak.

I am constantly amazed by life right now. Every where I turn there is sooo much beauty. I was with a friend in my studio today and he pointed out the lovely view of the parking lot and I laughed because I never notice it...

Then I said here lay down on the floor and all you will see is beautiful sky and green trees. Then during class as my clients were settling in for final Shavasana I looked up and noticed the sun was setting and creating an alpen glow effect...I feel so blessed. Soo much beauty.

I am not quite sure what will happen from day to day but what I do know is I will be okay. This has created some sweet moments in the past week for which I am grateful. (thank you)