A delicate balance....

Today I had a lovely opportunity to watch my mind and all its delicious ways it likes to MESS with me. I had to pull out all the stops. I set about to make my space beautiful and shinny clean and FINALLY put away all the clothes I washed before I went to Tahoe this weekend.

I can't just clean one part of the house and move on. I have to clean the whole house at once and everything looks like a disaster for a good five hours. A friend once said, "you must have ADD". You see I work in one area...like the kitchen and I can focus for about 20 minutes and then my mind starts up. what if...

So I start my mantra and move to another room...like the bathroom. I sweep the floor, hand wash the edges of the room and then around the toilet and then my minds starts up. what if...

So I start my mantra and move to bedroom to fold and hang the laundry. First I have to organize it and then I can work more efficiently to hang everything up. Yoga pants, tops, skirts, shorts, socks, etc... and then my mind starts up. what if...

Then when I look around and realize there is nothing left to do and I smile and then laugh at myself and the journey I took inward while outwardly taking care of my living quarters.

A text comes in...i have been thinking...

I left the house and walked to get away from my mind...to get away from all the thoughts that were slowly encroaching on my freedom. I have decided life is a delicate balance and it is all out of my hands.

All the while as I watched this whole thing unfold, I know I am still happy and I am still present but it seems today was a little cloudy on the inside and I had to work to stay mySelf...it didn't come easy.

I really had to laugh at the battle I created within today; I am still laughing. Especially in realizing I misunderstood said text.

The beauty of modern technology and the distortion of the mind...not a good combo.